I love Christmas and I love the joy it brings, however its become such a challenging time of year for me as a mum after suffering my SAH in 2015. High Anxiety, claustrophobia, difficulty in multitasking, extreme fatigue, being indecisive, short term memory loss are only just a few of the side effects ! I know these are normal traits of stroke survivors but from being a high powered VP in a global fashion company - it can really knock your confidence.
Just the thought of going shopping in a crowded environment or choosing a suitable gift when I cant even make up my mind, or being in the hustle bustle of the Xmas markets frightens me - the fact that someone might knock my head! Of course then to multitask and wrap the gifts with tags & names ( I forget names constantly) especially when you are part of a big family & friends network there are so many presents ?!
But me being the Survivor I am, I have created tools to adapt to my situation. spreadsheets, lists on my phone for the gifts that I need to get. I like to shop on the internet to get them bought, wrapped and delivered to the rightful owner - so much easier! I have also started to send out a digital card to all my contacts rather than trying to remember names and posting, also this helps to preserve the environment and I'm saving trees?
I prefer to go to a smaller Xmas market setting locally rather than the big city ones as I feel a sense of space and comfort.
Yes it has all changed for me, but I'm extremely lucky that I have a very supportive family around me that understand what I'm going through.
My husband has had a role reversal with me and now takes on the challenges of being a multitasking mum! It's quite endearing to observe but sometimes you just need a rest.
Merry Xmas everyone and enjoy each moment. If you are struggling adapt to what you can or just ask someone to help you. :)
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